Sweet Baby, Sour Cancer

   Well, today is labor day and tomorrow is my due date…guess what? Still no baby. We have tried EVERYTHING, I mean EVERYTHING… I have been on a steady diet of pineapple smoothies, buffalo chicken anything, Chinese food buffet, mexican, a glass of wine, cold beer, then repeat. I have walked up and down my street so many times, I now know all my neighbors and they know everything there is to know about me. Running totally on hormones at this point, I am sure my neighbors got more than an earful and probably know more than they ever wanted to know about me and this baby…ha ha, oh well. Anyways, I have bounced on the yoga ball, laps in the pool, hung myself upside down off the couch, pressure point massage, hubby and I, well, you know…. repeat it all again….and still…. NADA!!!!!!!

Looks like Baby K is not as eager to meet us as we are to meet him/her. This baby surely doesn’t realize its celeb status and that there are literally all of you and so many others all around the world who have been praying for it and waiting for it to make it’s grand appearance into this world.

Due to my miscarriages, I have had it in my head this whole time that I was a poorly suitable host monkey for a baby. I always felt like baby would be safer on the outside sooner than later and was completely ok with delivering early, I wanted to deliver early. I get that baby has to cook, I do! But, when you think there is something wrong with your cooker, that it could malfunction at anytime, and then add surgery, chemo therapy, extra medication, stress…it felt like a recipe for disaster. Looks like I have never been so wrong…this baby has set up shop! It has settled in and is quite comfy in there.  Even now as I write, I can tell baby is very happy, moving all around and is very content inside of me. Guess I am not that bad of a host monkey after all.

Tomorrow is also my birthday. So lets see, we want baby  to be born on its due date, on labor day and on my birthday. What an awful lot of pressure we are putting in this little baby and its not even out yet! It would be the best birthday present ever to get hold this baby on my birthday.  For some reason, I don’t see that happening. In fact I feel like this baby will never come out. I just keep remembering what my father in law said to me… He has never met any woman who was pregnant for ever, the baby has to come out at some point!