Ok Cancer, I don’t know why your STILL kicking around in my boobie but it’s time to get rid of you once and for all!

Yup! My pathology came back and my margins still have disease! Which means, yet another surgery. Now,  I think it’s time to say goodbye to my right breast. Sayonara!

It has served me well. You figure boobs have 2 jobs. 1. Attract and reel in a good husband with them… Check!… and 2. More importantly to feed a baby. Which I did by the way, get to feed Coraline with both for the first four weeks before I had to stop and let them dry up like the Saharah  for surgery (cancer you suck, messing up my plans yet once again) The cancer side did pretty good keeping up with healthy boob. I was surprised, but never the less that had to come to a heartbreaking end and now we are onto formula. Which by the way you would think that stuff is made out of caviar and should be served in a silver bottle. The cost of a can and how quickly it dissapears is both ridiculous and mind boggling. It’s the baby formula that will put us in debt, never mind the hospital bills!

So where are we at? In the past 6 months I have had 3 breast surgeries, 1 c- section, 1 baby, 4 rounds of chemo and a partridge in a pear tree that still has flippin cancer!!! My head is spinning. How did I do all that to now, still feel like I am right back at square one. It’s scary to think this toxic disease has been in my body for well over a year now! The old saying “always follow your gut” keeps popping up in my head. I originally wanted a radical mastectomy with my first surgery but opted for the less invasive lumpectomy. Little did I know I was in for the “non- radical” or slow mastectomy that happens over time, where they remove piece. by piece,  by piece,  by piece. I now wish I followed my gut. But, I made the right decision for me and my pregnant body at that time.

Next up is –  I have to meet with the plastic surgeon, hopefully next week and we shall see what kind of  new boob or boobs they can build me.

But for now, let’s celebrate the ta-ta’s… All the twin ladies out there-  Shake em, let them hang(high or low), give them a squeeze, love them, cause you just never know when you have to say goodbye. I never thought this would be me, but I always thought if it was, this would be easy to do… not so much.

Wow! It’s been a long time since I have posted anything! And of course we all know why- I have been soaking up every single second of being a new mom to my sweet little baby girl. Looks like all those old wives tales and theories I tried and wrote about in a previous post proved true for me. It was a girl! 

Cora was born on Sept 10th and the past 2 months have been exceptional! I have so much to write about and couldn’t possibly fit it into all one blog post. Lots of people have been asking when I am going to start writing again. My plan is to start  while I am in sunny Florida next week recovering from hopefully my last surgery- thank you for the push Meri Duffy! 

I have tons of half written blogs that I will finish and post- but I make no promises! I am pretty tired right now and I have to prioritize what gets done everyday. Unfortunately my blog has had to go on the back burner till I gain more steam and speed. I am also writing this blog on my phone making the typing pretty slow- a lap top would be much easier but can you believe we don’t own one. I always had one through work but since I haven’t been able to work-  no lap top for me. Oh well, I will make due with what I have as I always do. 

So hopefully you will be hearing from me in sunny Florida!