Sweet Baby, Sour Cancer

My journey through cancer and pregnancy, twice.

Ok Cancer, I don’t know why your STILL kicking around in my boobie but it’s time to get rid of you once and for all!

Yup! My pathology came back and my margins still have disease! Which means, yet another surgery. Now,  I think it’s time to say goodbye to my right breast. Sayonara!

It has served me well. You figure boobs have 2 jobs. 1. Attract and reel in a good husband with them… Check!… and 2. More importantly to feed a baby. Which I did by the way, get to feed Coraline with both for the first four weeks before I had to stop and let them dry up like the Saharah  for surgery (cancer you suck, messing up my plans yet once again) The cancer side did pretty good keeping up with healthy boob. I was surprised, but never the less that had to come to a heartbreaking end and now we are onto formula. Which by the way you would think that stuff is made out of caviar and should be served in a silver bottle. The cost of a can and how quickly it dissapears is both ridiculous and mind boggling. It’s the baby formula that will put us in debt, never mind the hospital bills!

So where are we at? In the past 6 months I have had 3 breast surgeries, 1 c- section, 1 baby, 4 rounds of chemo and a partridge in a pear tree that still has flippin cancer!!! My head is spinning. How did I do all that to now, still feel like I am right back at square one. It’s scary to think this toxic disease has been in my body for well over a year now! The old saying “always follow your gut” keeps popping up in my head. I originally wanted a radical mastectomy with my first surgery but opted for the less invasive lumpectomy. Little did I know I was in for the “non- radical” or slow mastectomy that happens over time, where they remove piece. by piece,  by piece,  by piece. I now wish I followed my gut. But, I made the right decision for me and my pregnant body at that time.

Next up is –  I have to meet with the plastic surgeon, hopefully next week and we shall see what kind of  new boob or boobs they can build me.

But for now, let’s celebrate the ta-ta’s… All the twin ladies out there-  Shake em, let them hang(high or low), give them a squeeze, love them, cause you just never know when you have to say goodbye. I never thought this would be me, but I always thought if it was, this would be easy to do… not so much.

10 thoughts on “Nananana, Hey Hey Hey, Goodbye! 

  1. This makes me sad for you..to think you have to lose a piece of your body in order to be healthy. But I’d rather you healthy. I love your positive attitude about this. Coraline sure has a strong courageous mama.

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    1. It’s ok- I think 😉 or at least I know it will be ok. And I will be alive, alive for a long time.
      Thanks! Have a great turkey day!


  2. cyndimom says:

    Jodi, what can I say? Your attitude is GREAT, I am praying and trusting that the end of your dealing with cancer will be over soon!!! Coraline is fortuante to have you as a Mom, God Bless you and your family.


    1. Thanks Cyndi! Have a great turkey day!


  3. Denise says:

    So sorry to hear that you keep hitting bumps in the road. You have been through more than anyone should. You attitude is amazing and I applaud you for that. It will serve you well as you move on to the next stage. Praying that it is done after that. Keep being strong and God Bless 😉

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  4. Robin says:

    All of your posts have been so beautifully written, but this one….the last paragraph….it made me cry….really cry! As a woman we often take our boobs for granted….we love them in a gorgeous Victoria’s secret bra, looking all perky and gorgeous….or we hate them when during the hazy hot and humid days of summer when you sweat in unmentionable places. But never do we think we might someday have to say goodbye to them….this is the hardest decision you will ever have to make. I’m so sad you have to go through this….I could say “stay strong, you got this”….but I wont. I will say, be mad, be sad, be pissed, throw something, cry your brains out….because its ok to be devastated. But remember this, you are loved!


  5. Maryam says:

    Jodi you are an inspiration to all women. I’m so sorry your margins are still off and loosing a piece of your body is heartbreaking at best. May God bless you as you undergo this surgery and finally say good riddance to this cancer! We all want you around for a very long time, living a healthy life and watching all of Caroline’s milestones. You’ve got this girl! You have such a positive attitude and that is 99% of wellness.

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    1. Thanks so much Maryam. Have a great turkey day!


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