WOW! What a year it has been. I look back at 2015 and wonder how I ever made it through but then… I pause, and, I smile. Piece of cake!!! (Wink wink)
Yeah, I did get cancer, March, 28, 2015 @ 3:18 in the afternoon. I will never forget it. But I will never forget the year and all the blessings that did come along with it. I have to say in the midst of such a horrible thing, I have never felt more loved, more humble, more gracious and more thankful than I have ever been… EVER! It amazes me that in such a time of uncertainty and pure bogusness and could be labeled as the worst time ever in my life comes such amazing and wonderful things. Go figure? I don’t get it… My Aunt Lil always said that my Great Grandma Zagas told her you have to suffer a bit to appreciate life… Do you truly have to suffer so greatly on one hand to reap such “rewards” ( lack of better terms) in the other? I wonder if this is what she meant.
If you take the cancer and all the negatives out of 2015 it was an incredible year… My very good and bestest friend who also happens to be my sister in law came home, spent 6 months with me and saw my baby be born. *never would have happened otherwise. I have rekindled old meaningful friendships that meant a lot to me and would have been difficult otherwise to reconnect. Currently, new and old relationship (family and friends) have deepened and grown to levels I never thought could be reached. Love has taken on yet another new meaning where few things are not taken for granted. And, of course the highlight is my precious Coraline. My sweet and dear Cora, who couldn’t be more perfect.
I truly have never felt more love, more self strength, more gratitude and more courage than I have in 2015. It’s a shame that I owe it to a terrible, terrible thing or diagnosis.
But, But, I look forward to loosing the diagnosis in 2016 and continuing on with the love, friends, relationships and motherhood! FU cancer! You will soon be in the past. I urge all of you to love deeper, be gentler and take time to appreciate, be thankful for the little and big things in 2016.
Cheers to being the best we can be in 2016 and smashing out cancer!