Whiplash

Wow! What a day. Good news is what I was hoping for and good news is what I got. No radiation! I am done with beating up, I mean, treating my body to get rid of cancer. No more chemo, no more surgeries, even no radiation! Done and done!!! In a matter of minutes I went from fighting to survive to now just surviving. From here on in its all about maintenance to keep the cancer away.  
Yaaay! I guess I am excited. I’m cancer free right? Isn’t this what I have been waiting for? I should be wanting to jump up and down and have a party. Not so much. Great the cancer is gone but I feel like it left me high and dry and holding the bag. I don’t know what’s in the bag yet but it seems ugly. It’s crazy…. crazy to think about. Once again my head is left spinning and my heart filled with all sorts of emotions and feelings I just can’t make sense of. 
I feel like screaming, what the hell am I suppose to do now? Where do I go from here? I’m accustomed to living this crazy, stressed life. Remember the wild ride, with no one at the wheel? Its like life became all surgeries and life threatening situations, and a baby, no sleep, new parents and more surgeries and this and that…. And now BAM! I’m on the It’s A Small World ride at Disney and life is just suppose to be “awesome” and “normal” again. What is normal? How do we get back there? The word whiplash comes to mind.  

  

One thought on “Whiplash

  1. Yaaaaaay😊😊😊😊😊😊 I am sooooo happy for you , Jodi!
    And for Nate and Cora and all your family supporting you thru your ‘sweet baby , sour cancer.’
    Amen. The End. And they live happily ever after. 😍

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