Prayers needed please!

On March 28, exactly 4 years ago today I was told the dreadful words “I’m sorry, it’s cancer”. F¥%#!!!! I remember everything about that day so clearly. The weather, where I was, what I had on and what I was doing. I was 16 weeks pregnant with Cora and terrified about my fragile pregnancy. I hung up the phone and as tears filled my eyes I knew my life would never be the same. I had no idea the challenges that we were about to face, head on. Fast forward 4 years to now and I am sorry to say after sharing such wonderful news that I am pregnant a few days ago, just like last time I am following up with some not so good news and that we about to face some of the same challenges. Today, Nate and I are headed back to my home away from home, Dana Farber to make a plan to cure my cancer just as we did 4 years ago. And again, just like before, I am 18 weeks pregnant this time around too!

Jaw drop, no words, silence………. Right?!?!! I need to insert a GIF or a meme here. I should have you all comment with one below…. ha! Now, pick your self up off the ground, shake off the shock and continue reading…. next comes… OMG, holy shit, fuck no, No way, I’m soooo sorry…. just a few of the reactions I have received so far from the few people who know what’s happening. Most don’t know what to say and ya know what … I don’t know what to say either. We are stunned, bug eyed, dismayed, floored as well. It doesn’t seem real At. All. or like this actually could be happening AGAIN. I have to tell myself multiple times this is real, this is happening now. And I am telling you guys, it is real people, so buckle up… we going for another ride on the cancer merry go round. Who wins this at this kind of crappy cancer lottery? HA, I guess me! I don’t even know how we got here again. I went in to see my OB for a simple complaint and came home that night thinking “Crap, they think I have have cancer again. No way! I’m fine. I feel great. I’m pregnant. No way this could happen again.” Less than a week later, after a few tests, a biopsy, my worst fear has come true. I have cancer again. What the heck?!?!!! So what do we do next??

We make it simple… we go by the standard rule to take it one day at a time. So, for today we are asking for prayer. Lots of prayer… today we find out if the cancer has spread or if it is contained in my lymph nodes. One is curable and one is not. Today we make a plan to kick cancer ass once again. If your not a person who prays, I ask that just today you say one. Please, pray for me, pray for my husband who is just as important in all of this, he is what I call a silent survivor and can be easily overlooked but a much needed and valued key player. We all love Natey! And please, most of all please pray for my sweet, sweet babies. Pray that this sour thing called cancer goes away. Pray that their Mom gets to live a long life and raise them to be wonderful God loving humans and I get to watch them grow and do good in this world. That I get love them, kiss their boo-boos and guide them through their teenage years (Lord help me), watch them grow into their own families and have grand babies of my own. AMEN!

I never would have made it through my last fight with cancer with out the support of prayer. I literally had thousands of people praying for me all over the world and I felt it. And it helped. We went through sooo much in the past 4 years that would break people down, tear families apart and put people away in looney bins. I truly believe because of prayer and the power it has we made it through and by the grace of God came out stronger. And we will make it through again. So today is game day… let’s start now, together.

28 thoughts on “Prayers needed please!

  1. Oh Jodi,
    Your right I don’t have words, but I will pray. I will also add you to the prayer list at FBC Abington. It is my deep prayer that God will be glorified as you beat cancer once again.
    Blessings and Love,
    Cyndi

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  2. I can’t believe I’m reading this…AGAIN! But you know what, you are tougher and stronger than cancer. You beat it once and you’ll do it again! Lots of prayers and love headed your way!🙏🏽❤💙💖💙

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  3. I am praying so hard for you all!! Sending lots of love. It’s just not fair- I am so sorry. Please let me know if you need anything at all.

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  4. This is not fair but you are and always have been one of the strongest people I know. You kicked cancer’s ass once and you’ll do it again. I love you and your family. Cora is so lucky to have you as her mom and so is this precious little baby your are carrying.
    Stay strong Jodi.

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  5. How why how why no no no. I cannot come up with any other words. Thank you for being brave enough to share this. I will pray every single day for you and your family. 💜💜💜💜

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  6. Hi there,

    I just read your post and I’m sorry you are going through this BS again. I was the pregnant woman with Breast Cancer who used to smile at you in the Brigham. I think our babies were about a month apart. I know you are frustrated, but please know you are not alone. I was stage 4 de novo while pregnant. I’m hoping for you it’s not a metastatic outcome for you, but if it is please know I’m here to talk anytime. I still see Dr. Mayer and I’m coming up on my 4 year cancerversary.

    Much love to you!

    Katie Crowell

    Sent from my iPhone

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  7. Along with multitudes of others, I will be praying for you and your family…and trusting God for His healing and peace and safety for your precious baby. Blessings, Susie Borden (your in-law’s neighbor).

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  8. Jodi
    Prayers for you and your family. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Keep your positive attitude and that beautiful smile. Xoxo

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  9. Katie!!!! Hi!!!! I know exactly who you are!!! I think about you all the time and wonder how you are doing. I am so glad you reached out. This is a total cancer shit storm that i cant believe i am in again. So friggin crazy! How is your little one? They grow so quick…. can you believe they are going to be 4!!! Cora is doing great and is sooo amazing. Lots of love to you!!!

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    • Hi Jodi,

      So far, so good. I have had a few setbacks, but I’m still here! I can’t believe our little girls are going to be 4. My little Gracie is great. She is a spunky little girl who has a heart of gold. She’s a little sister so she has learned a lot from her sister. I’m so glad Cora is doing well. I’m in Dana every 3 weeks right now, sometimes more. I’ll be in this week tomorrow, scans, and Wednesday for treatment. I saw on your post you start new treatment Thursday. I’m hoping it is successful. Cancer sucks, no way around it. I live in Milton, so I’m not far at all. If you need anything, please let me know. You have your hands full.

      Lots of love!

      Katie

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  10. Jodi-
    There are no words for this. You are a warrior and will battle again just like last time. You are an inspiration to so many and will always be surrounded by light and love. You ARE my family’s thoughts and prayers.
    Jillian and Carm Taglione

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  11. So sorry to read this post Jodi, I will place your name on the prayer wall at church this morning. The intentions on the wall are prayed for at every mass. I’ll be praying for you, your husband and your beautiful daughter every day.

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  12. Hi Jodie. My hubby and I as well as my parents the Marston’s are all praying for you guys. You are one hell of a strong woman and you will get through this again. Our love to you all!!! Donna Marston(Da Silva) and the Marston family.

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